Reflexions

How do you feel about mom & dad?
My mom & dad are good, booooring, but good.

What about your recovery?
I see many years to come.
My recovery is extremely important

and needs to be done.


I plan to continue on doing it.



Go, ,Charb, go!
U can do it!
If anyone can do it, it's you!
(Thumbs up!)
Sweet, sweet in a heart beat

Thank you God for this wonderful gift u have given me!
(insight)
Please, make it stronger, dear God

I try and pray a lot...
We need God.
He gives us what we need in life.
What we love.
Like friends and family.


How is your sight, Charbie?
I see letters in blur,


but I am fine with that.
I don't like to read. Never did.
Maybe now, I would like to read ,
especially about a fun subject,
like sports, weight lifting or arts.

What do u think about honesty?
Honesty makes the world go round!
I need more time to think about it!
Write that down so I will remember

What is your first memory after the accident?
I have no idea.


What are the things you do through the week?
I have no idea!
I spend my time at home.
I go to the hospital to work on
my recovery.

What do you do?
Not a clue!

It's boring, boring!
I am bored out of my mind!

What would like to do?
Party.
I would like to party all week long.

What would like to do that is really meaningfull?
(Shrugs his shoulders, pauses..)
I would like to work in the Hospital for
whatever they need me for

More on Charb... by Charb!

Lets say, well... Ellen is playing Socrates!
Ask a question, and another one, and
find the "truth" from one's own answers!

... Go ahaed, Ellen!

Charb, how are you feeling today?
I do not know how to tell you.
I feel sad and tired and unhappy and droopy...
What is going on in your head?
I don't know, sometimes I worry about the future.
I want to write "bah hum bug":
that means I am annoyed with life...



The world is a place where you feel everything,
love and hate
Love? is when you more than like a person,
when you would kill to be with ,
or destroy anything to get to! All for love.
Hate? When u don't like something at all,
when you just would destroy it, bring it down!
I feel like I could cry, cause I feel so lonely.

No girl in my life.

Friends aren't enough sometimes.
u need love to be happy
u love your friends in a different way.

Do u love yourself?
I don't think. Why should I?

It's not easy loving myself, cause I think I am a big time loser.

Cause it has been a very long time since I had a girl to hold and love...

My friends don't give in to every thing I say.
They don't believe what I tell them.
I can't remember what, though
( with a sarcastic laugh)!




My life seems OK. But I don't like where I am at.
It's so hard on me, so darn boring!



I like you, Ellen. I like Justin.
I like Anthony but I liked him more
before the accident,
because I don't do the same things
with him now, we even played with Lego (smile!)


I want to write about hot girls.
I'm really passionate about sexy ladies.

I need more people loving me.
I need a single hot young lady loving me

This makes me anxious.

I need to work on my recovery,
but it's boring, I need fun and excitement!

It's complicated.

It's such a slow process, too slow for me.

But I am still fighting!

Three years later...

YES!
It has been 3 long years!
Lots of advances made, a lot more still to happen.
Whoever said it would be very slow was right.
Whoever thought it would be impossible was wrong...
"Despair" is rarely resurfacing.Tears are drying.
Ups and downs, bright moments and grim ones alternate all day long.
Laughs cascade more often, as we sit together and listen to him
with his fine sense of humor, and his sharp remarks!

Still, we need more and we need it now!

But what about him???

What does he think of exercises, people around him, his life and its meaning?

Well, lets listen to him, by his own words!

My life is sad,
one minute I'm winning a Championship,
the next I'm a big loser.

Define Loser: _ Someone who does not win anything!

If only I had something to inspire me!

Define Inspiration:_ The meaning behind winning a Championship.

I miss lifting weights, playing rugby and wrestling.
Maybe I can become a swimmer, but I'm not interested in that.

I like to watch TV. I want to play video games.

Everything seems so hard, if not impossible.

My brain injury makes me sad.
My recovery irritates me, I find it very boring, incredibly boring.

I can not think about the injury,
it's too much to pursue, to handle, to deal with.

I am sick of the people who help me daily!
they constantly repeat themselves.

I feel my anger very heavy, the heaviest part of my body.
Like a big heavy weight on my shoulders.

I hate that I can not keep thoughts in my head.

I hate the fact that I rarely see my friends, and when I do
I can't remember seeing them.

I feel like a different person.

More confident in some ways, like talking to people.
I am not sure why, I think it's because I'm lonely.

I feel my life getting better ever so slowly!

It will change! I feel it, on the outside right here (lifting his hand
over his heart and chest).
It's hard to explain.

All you people out there:
LIVE STRONG
FIGHT HARD
NEVER STOP BELIEVING.

This was Charbel's sort of "confession" recorded & written by Ellen

few days ago...

In his exercise room, getting ready for action!

Hanging out with Justin!



Happy to see an old friend!



Slide out of the wheelchair, in
the rear of his van!



Eating "shawarma" and loving it!

September 08 BREAKTHROUGH...

Charb had finally made it to the swimming pool at Acadia,

thanks to The SMILE program! & and the good volonteers!

He does enjoye going there a lot!

More videos in Photo album

More of August!

Charb meets Dorcas!
It has been over a year since she promised to take him out for a Burger!












Dorkas, Megan & Bill with us around Charb...














After a long wait, he is taking it seriously!

All you can eat & drink, man!

Thank you, Dorcas! It was nice meeting you!
Hopefully next time around we can make "grape leaves!"

Rainy August!

August 2008 was the worst month in years! Weather wise!
It rained every day... by the buckets! or as Sam slick says: It rained
cats and dogs!


Still, we managed to do some activities and met a lot of people!

We went to Acadia... and had a swim!

We met Cynthia, the OT...


And best of all, we had a BBQ party!






Bill Brown, Anthony Wood and Ellen
played music...

Other's waited for food...




Some even tried to steal my burger!



.. or my drinks!



Fortunatly, Jhonny and Megan were there to help me!


See more by clicking Photo Album!... Enjoy!

July's improvements... and more!

Here is Charb with Godfry, proudly wearing the new jersey

and planning the future of the
Rugby team, The Machine!

He is able to wheel himself around, but preferes not to do it!

Except when going to the kitchen!

Meeting with Doctor S. Walling, the Neurosurgeon who took

care of him in QEII... amd who is amazed of Charb beating all

medical expectations!

Surprised and "sooooo... happy" to see Charb,

nurses from the 7th floor greet him with disbelief!

(He spent 4 month there, one operation after another,

ended up opening his eyes, then left to Windsor Hospital...)